a bloody story

A bloody story

So the other day an incident occurred. The morals of it were far reaching. I will share.

My 6 y old kitchen savvy and chef wanna be son decided to chop cantaloupe. Something that he has done many times yet accidents happen and in an instant  sliced his finger. Numerous gauzes were used with copious amounts of ice. Yet after almost and hour and a half of pumping bright red blood that never ceased we finally took him to the local Urgent care center. It was still pumping away and during the registration process the medical staff entertained him with their kindness and compassion. Immediately his bleeding in front of my eyes stopped. Now one might say that all bleeding stops eventually, but this was something spectacular. The medical staff also remarked how quickly it ceased and literally before our eyes the wound closed and healing was well under way. What was the catalyst? He was calmer. 

Once engaged within the more peaceful and jovial environment of others he quickly calmed down and allowed his body to do what it innately knows. Heal thyself. 

This is an important observation as it can apply to copious examples in our lives where the stresses and tensions catapult our minds and bodies into different directions and the lack of synchronization aides us even less. Imagine for a moment the link between our outward environment that can turn hostile at home, work or even family life whereby we are immediately put into a state of flight or fight and our internal arena. Whether we are  fighting off diseases within and unsuspectingly receive the common cold or flu or are forced to deal with life circumstances of  difficult finances or protracted hardships that change our physiology to a hyper state. The effects on our organs and bloodstream are extreme as  are the effects to  our heart and mind dramatic play. 

Our internal environment is linked to our external surroundings via our sense bodies and regulated by our mind and brain yet governed by our heart through feelings. It is here where we have the opportunity to over rule the chaos of the minds' fears and anxieties and return all parts of our selves to a peaceful and well balanced center. In the end it is the identity of the Self  that we sometimes forget to recognize that is the ultimate driver of the vehicle that is our fragile body. 

Moral of the story. Watch out for sharp knives by being fully present in the moment and when things go awry the same presence of heart and mind will bring about miraculous results in our lives and to all around us that we interact with in our world. There are emergencies and then there are emergencies. Knowing which to one to react to and how to react to them is a conditioned response by filtering the emotions through the heart. 

The path

The path.

We arrive not a moment too soon, or a moment too late yet just at the right time to a path in front of us that may be devoid of clarity. It is covered with the dust of doubt, and littered with the stones of burdensome concerns. It may not be fully lit with the ideas of purpose. Yet the path is there for the discovery. When the clock strikes the appointed hour we awaken with the need to sweep away doubt. We have the urge to pave those concerns and ignite the candle of self compassion and light our way. 

The path may feel cold and distant yet all it requires is the first step to begin the journey. It has been said that any journey of a 1000 steps begins with the first. This journey requires the first step to be initiated by letting go of a 1000 fears. A seemingly daunting task yet undertaken easily with gratitude and love. 

Embracing all that is contradictory, and engaging all that feels vulnerable and  brooming away all the resentments of self is the invitation that this path holds out for you. In doing so the aliveness of your heart lights this road to a new destination. The unknown is pregnant with possibility as you move on this path.   

The fog of illusion that envelopes our path  is easily dispelled with hope and resolution of a magic that has yet to be performed. 

Love is the path. Love is the path of infinite possibilities. Love is the only thing we have to remember to begin our adventure. 

an emotional photographic tale

An emotional photographic tale

I recently glanced at a picture that was taken. I would love to meet the photographer one day and ask what they felt and what they did after the truth was told. It was a simple black and white picture of a mother, clothed in poverty standing at a relatively modern looking subway station in front of a stopped train holding a sleeping child. It was quite touching and my heart felt saddened and soft for this heart felt picture. A poor woman having to carry her very small child because perhaps she could not afford the luxuries of modern transport and so had to go by foot. 

This was not the story. Underneath I read the investigative report. She was a poor woman indeed. Yet the child she was carrying was dead. She has been the victim of gang rape a few hours earlier and her child was murdered in the process. She had covered up her child with dignity yet had no way to return home so was in midst of traveling back to her village. The shame of rape only heightened by the loss of her child and the holding back of her tears for the sake of embarrassment or perhaps preserving the modicum of strength left in her to simply take her and her deceased child home. 

What did this evoke in me? Initially solemn sadness of a tale of poverty coupled with the tenderness of a mother and child. A picture says a 1000words, but it does not paint the entire story. I was emotionally turned to a gut wrenching nausea and anger with the apparent violation and immediate anger and the need for justice against the perpetrators. It has taken me a long time to wrestle with this turbulence of emotional unrest. Yet these sort of atrocities happen daily through out the world yet is rarely publicized. 

There is no easy soft way to go through emotional suffering. It must pass like waves of sea sickness. In the end my anger rested on the shores of understanding of the love of a mother and child and not in the fiery hatred of the violators of crimes. What was done, was done and the past cannot be undone. The queasiness will never go away, nor should it. The message is that human emotion in all its spectrums must be experienced and therefore known and it is in the unfolding we become who we were always meant to be, spiritual beings having a limited human experience.  

Physics

Physics

A field of instant boredom or immediate excitement. For me it started off in school as a very difficult subject matter to understand and grasping the concepts were more than arduous, they were frustrating. Yet I plugged away. Later in life, it all seemed to click and make sense and then ended up taking quantum physics and quantum chemistry which became mind numbingly fun. 

There is the physics of the seen. This is Newtonian. We can touch, observe and  manipulate the experiments of nature. Then there is the physics of the unseen. This is more Einstein derived. Quantum universes within quantum cells, understanding the universal whole down to its building blocks and trying to bridge the two. Cerebral to say the least and only until recently experimentally validated. Then there is the physics of the soul as it pertains to feeling. This places us right into the heart of the universe and we become integrally connected into and everything that is universal, whether seen or  unseen. Time and dimensions become illusionary in the face of all that is manifest or unmanifest, whether absolute or relative when you deal with the physics of the Self. 

My experimental tool is my heart and not my mind. The resonance of feeling unlocks the energetic vibrational frequencies within all and the Self. It can then manifest the reality of choice of mind or spirit. My spirit is both the  observer and the experimenter of all realities in every timeline in every universe occurring simultaneously. And so both my outcome research data and evidence is created instantly as long as I tap into my research  companion. 

Everything infinitely small and infinitely big is connected and so the sphere of size is irrelevant. The interaction of all forces seen and unseen flows through and within the heart space. The energy of love is the only constant highest vibrational energies throughout the cosmos. For not the universal love of existence, nothing would exist. That is where the universal heart not mind of intention plays role. And so becomes the greatest tool of creation. Looking for more "evidence" look closely in the mirror at every feature, pore, strand on your physical and how it works and then look into your eyes and see perhaps for the first time the unseen version of you, the researcher. Find the love in your heart to connect to this aspect of You and manifest an unparalleled future. 

I love my researcher and all the tools that he employs. Publications of his findings are abound.... in every interaction with YOU !! 

Body transformations

Body transformations

Yet another magazine I throw away in the garbage that has innumerable pictures of amazing ( probably photoshopped) models with great bodies. Thin, slim, sculpted, perfect. We all go through these phases in our lives where we take our being healthy, fit, and feeling alive to the next obsessive level. It is perfectly fine to target and reach that height if you are into sports, or exercising, competitive and striving for a personal bench mark. Yet if it is to look like someone else because it is popular then I would disagree on those goal ideas. 

Few things to remember. At a certain age after having children and trying to turn back the clock to look like a 21 year old because you want to be liked is a bizarre   concept, yet I see it all the time. The desire to change with healthy doses of exercise and better eating habits is one thing, but then to jump into surgical options for the sake of vanity may not always be called for. Those stretch marks that you may want gone are reminders of your 9 month long arduous pregnancy and the delivery of your child. Your bags under your eyes are reminders of those sleepless nights you spent with your child, or the hard work you went through doing two jobs or late shifts. The callouses on your hands are reminders of the laborious tasks you performed with your hands for work, or a special endeavor like toiling in the fields or your flower or vegetable garden. The aches of your feet recollect the long distances you may have walked for years to the nearest bus station to go to school or seek work . 

So the next time I decide to simply BE like that person in the glamorous eye-catching magazine taunting me from the newsstand,   I will force to remind myself that my body with all its socially estabilished imperfections is the complete record book of all my life's experiences and memories. My body has been with me since the time I came into this world, and remains with me till I decide to leave. We have gone through innumerable trials and tribulations and it has been revered and abused, yet the vehicle of my soul continues to serve. Be proud of who you are and who you have become. If you want to perform modifications go right  ahead, but do it for you and not anyone else or for any life situation you are trying to escape from.

You are simply perfect the way you are. 

I am me. And loving it. 

how much is enough compassion?

How much is enough compassion?

I am often plagued with the notion of do I have enough compassion? Not do I have compassion. I do, but do I have enough for another human being. After all I am just a simple human how can my bucket of compassion be infinitely deep. Yet what say we toy with the idea that it can be infinitely deep.... how do we get it there? Understanding the nature of compassion is key. 

Compassion is the profound understanding for another person. It stems from a vastness of our hearts that holds tremendous respect. Yet in this form it is respect for oneself. It is the compassion of myself, completely and totally that will enable the eventual offering of love of myself to the love of another. It is the connection that we seek when we offer our holding of space in the cosmic moment of now as we commune with another living soul. 

Acknowledging our own pain, and healing that to whatever extent brings forth the energy of love. When this new entity has been  filled up to the brim of our hearts and runs over, we offer it to another who we recognize who is in similar emotional pain. It does not have to be the same scenario that brings about the pain, as pain is the end result of whatever  devastating situation has arisen. This love makes its way out to the other when the respect, the understanding of ourselves enables a bridge to be created to another's heart. 

As we surrender a fragment of our love to another, so too does the universe do the same towards our own hearts from its heart center with the same conscious understanding of its vast infinite self. Ergo this translates to an infinite amount of compassion. And so lies the mathematical logic of the limited mind asking to balance an infinite question. Compassion is infinite, and limitless, as it stems from the human heart that has the capacity for the same. Connecting to your Self, that aspect of you that is connected to the universe, leads to your bucket never being empty. 

Respect, understanding, love for you is synonymous with compassion towards  others.  

full moon woes

Full moon woes

Heads up folks powerfully intense full moon showing up july 9. This particular moon has the potential to create all kinds of serious relationship issues. The polarities are fierce and manifests as ego vs emotion and inner tensions vs external pressures. There is a lot of chance at disharmony with personal conflict and draining of energy. I too fell unsuspectingly victim to some of the effects yet quickly turned things around. 

The purpose of this particular intensity is appropriate. It provides the emotional strength to retune what was unveiled in the last new moon. When you develop subconscious awareness it will allow for the balanced objectivity. We all may experience some level of trouble focussing. Goals need the drive to manifest, hence the last new moon for goal creation  and this full moon to set things in motion. 

Relationships with friends and family can become quite heated and intense suffering from impulsivity  and aggressive actions. Channeling this untamed energy in grounding and exercise will help tremendously. Be mindful of your temper and quick triggered reactions. We essentially turn  into out of control pressure cookers.

Recoding and restructuring and recalibrating of the geometrics and fundamental sequences are constantly happening yet it is these bursts of vibrational frequency adjustments that radically shift our very being to the next level. Sometimes change is thrust upon you when you least expect it or desire it. Obsessed feelings can become the target of arguments and fights. 

Here are some helpful tips to handle this moon.

1) do not react to every interaction no matter how intense. A quick pause and breath will reset you

2) Feel the ground.

3) lay your hands on your heart and feel the beat

4) Breathe deeply from your lower belly

5) Listen and talk less

These moon effects will pass as quickly as they arrived. It is in the feeling of unsteadiness where you will find your path and know that you are on the right track. 

Patience. Flow. Allow. Love.