Thursday, January 25, 2018

Fire fire

Fire Fire....

There are some elements that when yelled out loud make us nervous. I mean if you yell out "water" or " wind" or "earth" you may not get the same response as " fire." In our psyche this element has been known to more commonly cause a high potential for loss of life or property. Now take this into a different context it would give more or less  of an impact. Such as screaming " fire" in a movie house. This would evoke fear, anger, confusion, panic, and result in a stampede and a whole host of other problems as people try to hastily exit the establishment. Fight or flight hormones would activate with all sorts of neuro transmitters firing in the brain to initiate a cascade of emergent and urgent strategies. Heart rates rise, blood pressures soar and eyes widen with the beginnings of flight. 

Now take a reversed context. If one would yell " Movie" in a fire house. This is not only absurd but laughable and would more than likely engage emotions of laughter, joy, relaxation and fun. This scenario evokes the parasympathetic nervous system of calming down, rest, and enjoyment. Hormones reflecting the same travel the blood stream, and create a happier and joyous mind, after all who does not want to take a little time and have some recreation. 

Lets take this one step further. Shouting out hateful and hurtful words in a crowded place or even towards one other being, evokes the fear and flight response to the aggressor and the victim of the abuse. Going in slow motion through the process the aggressor has to first injure their soul and their heart raped  with the thought of hate that will  then lead to anger and the surge of sympathetic  hormones reaches all the organs  of the body long before the angry words are even uttered. Now the victim has an equal response to the spouted out words.  They will be first taken by surprise and off guard and then the defense mechanisms kick in. Physically they shrivel back, mentally their executive centers shut down and their hormones surge with the same hormones of fight or flight as the words travel to their ears then to their brain and then to their emotions, which all cascade down to their heart and soul and then the cycle starts anew with a response after being hurt. Either they run away or they fight and repeat the cycle to the other person. 

 On the contrary yelling " Love" in a crowded room or to another person, will emanate happiness and feelings of joy regardless of who you tell it to. Such is the nature of the energy and power of this four letter word. It vibrates at a much higher frequency and so replaces lower ones. This word changes the vibrations when uttered as it whizzes past the ear drum into our brains, bodies, hearts and soul. This word transforms the feelings of hate in to a much higher frequency. Energetically there is an alchemy that manifests with great storm. 

So the next time you meet a hateful person spewing racially charged or gender focussed views or any form of derogatory words, regardless of who that person is, simply take a breath, and yell back " I love you." You may think this is so absurd, but yes it is absurd enough to throw them off balance and disarm them. Do it to yourself first when you are at your angriest and most frustrated. Look in the mirror and disarm yourself first. Only a heart filled with love will afford the opportunity of saying "  I love you" with it being genuine. 

Remember simply that by giving in to a fear and hate filled person    with more fear you are only  allowing them to become more  powerful. They turn into a bully, and more of a person of power. 

Focus. Breathe. Change your perspectives with love. 

Friday, January 19, 2018

In the glass house

In the glass house

I look up within my prison of fears and I see the transparency of my dreams that lies await for me.I am trapped in my great mind, with an unbending ego as my cell mate with the charges of my haunting  past. It is here where my life stands still, never allowing me to move forward. It is in this fragile glass house of an experience I exist. In this timeless prison I find the demons of my vulnerabilities taunting me to a life of platitude and complacency. I struggle to shout out and to be heard yet my mind is the warden to my soul as I am afforded little freedom of expression of my heart.

Within  this captivity I have forged a  new learning and understanding. The wisdom of compassion. Slowly the embers of love have coalesced to form a raging fire within my heart that allows nothing to diminish it and nothing can withstand its power. A radiant sun is born deep and now is unearthed. The mind trembles with the light, the ego fears its new freed mate and my chains of the past no longer hold their strength. 

Yet one last fear remains. To leap through the vulnerabilities of my fragile mind and grasp my destiny. Why does it still linger? Is it a lack of courage, or faith or wisdom? No. none of these. It lies in the desire to allow that fire to burn infinitely bright and allow it the opportunity to blaze through all the walls on all sides and reach out to destinations yet unseen. It is in this allowing that I will witness my freedom. It is in this acknowledgment of the flame of my love of my soul that enables the price of my imprisonment to be overpaid above and beyond and with it set me free. 

What holds you back? What prison are you trapped in? Whatever, or whoever it is, the opportunity for freedom is in your grasp. Your light of your divine love has been always  watching you from the other side and waiting for you to lift the veils of your limited experiences. Your beacon is in your sight, and now is not the time to close your eyes, but to smash through every limitation and rise.

Step out of your glass house and breath the fresh air of love. 
 

Friday, January 12, 2018

heart felt apologies

Heart felt apologies

There are times when I have felt anger towards another. There are times where you may have felt regret towards another. There are times when we feel envious or jealous of another individual. All these emotions are human and yet drag us down, inhibiting our progress. These feelings  reveal the worst within our character. It is in this unveiling of flaws that we have a opportunity to make whole all the wrongs that we feel. Bitterness, jealousy, hate and anger are all aspects of our fears gone awry. Fear comes from the lack of control of external environments which in this modern era we cannot hope to control even if we desperately tried, and so the search of our own self control begins. If this too is left adrift I try to control my outside stimuli, to which I falter almost all the time. 

The process of bridging the gap of negative to positive emotions is done by apologies. Yet it is not easy to simply apologize to the person that has been wronged. When the raw wound remains salted there is precious little chance of healing. What if the person you choose to apologize has passed or un reachable  to contact? Then the guilt of all these emotions lay unresolved on the dry desert of your psyche. What do we do? Should we succumb to the haunting torture of our own mind creations of negativity? How do we tackle the fabrications of our ego that have led us astray? Simply put, we apologize. But to whom? 

I apologize to myself. I tender to my torn heart with as much care as I would another's with acknowledgment of the pain that I have caused my heart through egoic constructs of jealousy, envy, hate and anger that were never real to begin with. It is in this surrender that the rains of forgiveness can sweep away the pain. This does not mean that it was ever acceptable if that other person hurt you in any way. That is a different side of the story that needs replaying and reprocessing. This is only for our own emotions that made us create a dramatic story in our minds from unhealed timelines and triggers of our past. 

Self apology. Understanding. Acceptance of a wrong that I created provides accountability. It affords the responsibility for the wound.  This is the first step in the healing of a heart that has been worn out by the onslaught of a mind that is attempting to survive. Once this patience with one self has been made to be present, the apology towards another dissolves with the negative emotions carried in tow.

You are not broken and do not need fixing. Only our heart needs attention. It is time I apologize to my ever present heart.